I don't want to run...

...Just overwhelm me


Saw the Fray with Jack's Mannequin Friday night. It was a good show. Had a great time on the way back singing along to some N'Sync and mellowing out to some Regina Spektor after that. The rain on the 4th interrupted my plans of golf, but I was able to make it out Sunday, and again on Monday, so not all was lost.


I've found myself wishing I had someone to share more time with lately. I do a lot with a lot of different people, but it would be nice to have someone along the whole journey and not just bits and pieces. I've found myself becoming increasingly more lonely, despite the constant interaction I have with people. I've mentioned it before, but I crave change and well, it's time for another change, I'm just not too sure what it should be yet.

So, I'll just sit here and think, wondering all the while where my next steps should go. I'm not even sure I know where I want those steps to end up, which makes it difficult to know how to start. I'm happy by myself, really, but that doesn't mean I can't get lonely at times. I want quality time with someone and lately all I've had with anyone is quantity. And perhaps that's what draws me closer to some is when I get a glimpse of quality time, like what I think I had for awhile last week, I want more of that.

"The Lightning Strike" by Snow Patrol

Whati f this storm ends?
And I don't see you
As you are now
Ever again

The perfect halo
Of gold hair and lightning
Sets you off against
The planet's last dance

Just for a minute
The silver forked sky
Lit you up like a star
That I will follow

Now it's found us
Like I have found you
I don't want to run
Just overwhelm me

What if the storm ends?
And leaves us nothing
Except a memory
A distant echo

I want pinned down
I want unsettled
Rattle cage after cage
Until my blood boils

I want to see you
As you are now
Every single day
That I am living

Painted in flames
All peeling thunder
Be the lightning in me
That strikes relentless